Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Adoption: Leia Joy Esther Scott

Rachel and I are proud to introduce our 6th child and 4th daughter...

Leia Joy Esther Scott 

Born in China April 8, 2002, her name honors her current Chinese name, speaks to how we think of her, honors one of the great women of faith in our family, and includes the name that God used to lead her into our family. 


Leia – Part of Leia’s current Chinese name is ‘Lei’   Given her age, we wanted to honor her Chinese roots by choosing a name for her that was similar to her current name.  We were thrilled to learn that adding an ‘a’ to the end resulted in a beautiful name, Leia (pronounced LAY-uh) with a beautiful meaning - ‘child of heaven; heavenly flowers.’  As noted below, there is no question in our minds that God meant for this child to end up in our family.  Child of heaven indeed. 

Joy – We chose the name Joy not only because of the emotion we feel when we think of this child, but also as a way to honor my sister Heather whose middle name is Joy.  Any child adopted out of China comes from a place of brokenness – broken due to medical ailments or being orphaned or any number of difficult circumstances.  While Rachel and I have chosen to allow our children privacy on these kinds of matters, it should not be a surprise to anyone that Leia has experienced loss in her life.  My sister Heather is a mighty woman of God who loves Jesus deeply.  She has experienced loss in her life that would crush most women and yet today she is simply one of the most amazing people I know.  Our great hope is that Leia will learn to lean into the Lord as my sister Heather has done and find healing and wholeness where true healing and wholeness comes from. 

Esther -  I will never read the Biblical story of Esther the same way again.  Through this story God led us to Leia and that is why Esther is part of her name. 

In the next blog entry I will write about how we came to adopt through China.   But for understanding how ‘Esther’ impacted Leia’s story, one only needs to know that we started the adoption process in May 2015 being matched to our now nearly 2 year old Chinese daughter.  We learned after doing our home study and dossier that we could adopt two children on the same dossier.  However, most two person adoptions involved sibling groups or children from the same orphanage….neither of which was going to be the case with the girl we were already matched with.  Regardless, we prayed about this as a family and were open to the idea of adopting two children on this trip should the opportunity present itself. 

By November we were well on our way to getting all the approvals necessary to travel to China in January.  During this time, our church’s youth director asked Rachel to give a message to the youth about Esther.  As she researched the story and started gathering ideas, she noticed on one of the adoption Facebook groups a girl named ‘Esther’ was available for adoption.  Curious given the fact the she was researching the Biblical Esther, she decided to research this ‘Esther’ as well.  This girl was our Leia. 

As a sidenote, you may have noticed in the past two blog posts the term "For Such A Time As This..." included in the message.  That phrase is from the story of Esther and was the theme Rachel spoke about to the youth.  Little did she know she was preaching to herself as that is exactly how we felt when the opportunity to adopt Leia finally presented itself.  We were put in this place and time 'for such a time as this'  

Anyway, Rachel read through her information noticing immediately that she had hearing aids just like our Hayleigh.  She watched a video of her and immediately noticed the kind spirit when ‘Esther’ spoke to a younger child and the respect she gave an adult along with full eye contact in another part of the video.  AJ watched the video and announced, “That’s my big sister!!!”  


All these things prompted Rachel to call the adoption agency to inquire about her status.  She learned that ‘Esther’ was 13 years old and according to rules set up in China she would ‘age out’ on her next birthday which was April 8.  Another flag went off in Rachel’s mind as that is the birth date of our son AJ!  What are the odds of finding a child with hearing aids like one of our children and a birth date of another one of our children?  Coincidence? 

Rachel learned that ‘aging out’ meant if this girl’s adoption is not totally completed before her 14th birthday she would never be allowed to have a forever family.   While China allows children like this to continue to live at the orphanage and continue to be educated, you can image that with no family the long term outcomes are often not very positive.  Rachel was grateful to learn that a family was pursuing ‘Esther’ already, and it looked like she would have a forever family after all. 

Rachel asked the adoption agency if they had a 'waiting list' just in case something happened but they said ‘No, we don’t have a list like that.  Besides, we are confident this adoption will go through.”  Rachel went back to the adoption facebook page, left a message about how wonderful she thought this child was and that if something fell through with the adoption she would be interested in adopting her.  And we thought that was that. 

Fast forward the middle of January 2016….we received our travel approval for going to China for our nearly 2 year old child and researched buying plane tickets for January 22.  While doing this Rachel received an urgent Facebook message from someone she doesn’t know referring back to that ‘Esther’ thread from November.  The person told Rachel that the adoption had fallen through and with less than three months before ‘Esther’ aged out she was looking for a family to step up and take this precious child into their family.

We called Esther’s adoption agency and confirmed this was true.  Within a few minutes we received her more detailed electronic information packet.  I immediately noticed one important date in her life was my birthday and one important date happened last year literally the week we decided to adopt from China.  More coincidences? 

We called a family meeting that night and talked and prayed and talked some more and prayed some more.  We slept on it and ultimately we all agreed to open our hearts and our family to adopt this child.  Two other families had contacted the adoption agency before us but by the end of the weekend neither of them could move forward (not enough time to get paperwork done etc). 

Monday morning January 18 we got notification of our consulate appointment in China for our little one and while reading that note the call came in from Esther’s adoption agency saying if we wanted to adopt her, she was all ours. 

WE SAID YES YES YES!!!!    I wish I had a video of the little boys jumping up and down in excitement over this news.  AJ had been right after all….she was going to be his big sister AND his family birthday buddy.   

We called our adoption agency and told them what was going on.  They said that if we travel to get our nearly 2 year old daughter that it would trigger all kinds of new paperwork.  Therefore, it would be better to cancel the consulate appointments, do the paperwork that needed to be done for ‘Esther’ and then go to China near the end of March. 

That Monday in January, I felt God’s fingerprints all over this situation….not just because of all the coincidences but just something that I couldn’t explain.  Wednesday the 20th I got the  call that my 86 year old father was probably not going to live through the night.  I flew to Dallas and he lived until the 22nd which was the day Rachel and Sarah would have been on a flight to China had none of this happened.  Coincidence?  I don’t think so.

On my father’s last day of life with all the family who had made it to his bedside, I was able to tell them the story of our daughter Leia.  Her story was the last great story I was able to share with my father before his story here on earth ended and his new story began in heaven. 


Gotcha Day 

'Gotcha Day' is a term in the adoption community when you meet your child for the first time.  Real time this happened Easter Sunday in America (though it was the next day in China).  I was able to Facetime and talk with Leia for the first time Easter Sunday night just before midnight here in the States.  The translator was still with them and so I was able to explain the significance of her name to her.  She wanted us to write out the name for her and this picture I took while she was looking at her name for the first time.  This was really a special time for all of us and I will leave it at that....

Leia looking at her name for the first time

I'm going to post the picture below again because I love it so much.  The past 2 days I have been just like a brand new father showing this picture to pretty much anyone who would look.  "Let me show you my new daughter!"....to the receptionist at the dentist, the sandwich making lady at the restaurant in town, the mailman, the people at the gas station, people at the school, a guy who showed up at the door trying to sell me something "not interested, but let me show you my new daughter!"  




Rachel says things are going exceptionally well.  Leia calls her 'mama' and is 'so helpful, sweet, and kind.'  The sisters are playing games together and bonding.  In China, older children have the right to say 'No' after meeting the family.  Just as we said 'YES' to her back in January, she said 'YES' to us yesterday.  She is officially our daughter!  Blessings abound and we thank God for our 'child of heaven' Leia.  

As I post this on the evening of March 29 in America, Rachel and the girls are waking up in Nanchang China (flew there late on the 29th in China) and are preparing to pick up our youngest child a few hours from now.  Can't wait to introduce you to her in the next day or two!  

Until then God bless,

Andrew


Sister bonding....



My comment to Rachel was "Don't you think we should teach her English before we teach her to gamble?"  :)  


On the way to the airport...


Leia's first time on an airplane!  Flying from Shenyang to Nanchang.  Look at that dimple!!!!


An absolutely hilarious picture of Leia meeting her brothers for the first time.  Naked and in the bathtub.  Look at her and Sarah laughing!   They called when the boys were in the tub....what was I supposed to do???





Sunday, March 27, 2016

Adoption: A Mother's Thoughts, A Father's Thoughts

A Mother’s Thoughts…

I am supposed to be asleep, but I am lying awake thinking about tomorrow... I've been counting the hours until we meet her, our new daughter who isn't so new.  A girl who has been waiting almost 14 years for her forever family.  I have caught myself thinking about a speech I heard once from a Christian who rescues women and girls from the evil practice of sex trafficking.  As she spoke of God’s love, one of the girls said "if your God loves me so much why didn't he come sooner to get me?"  And the Christian’s response was "because for too long I didn't listen."   

Since I was a small girl I have wanted to adopt children from Asia.  And I wonder if some day I won't be asked that same question..."why did you take so long to come get me?"  The ‘why’ questions are sometimes the hardest questions.  But I know as well that many of my ‘why’ questions from long ago that seemed so unfair, difficult, and confusing at the time….I can see now how God used those times to mold me and change me.  I am praying for guidance and the ability to help our new daughter.  God’s timing is perfect and I don't know why it is now but we are here, for such a time as this....

I hope we do not disappoint.  I hope we are what she has pictured in her dreams.  I hope she can see us and love us despite the broken people we are...broken people that opened our arms and said, "Here I am."  So here we are Lord; take and use us...Please help us and especially help our new children to be courageous and strong.



A Father’s Thoughts…

When Rachel and I started talking about a future together, we discussed the topic of how many children we wanted.  I said 4.  She said 2.  And somehow that has now ended up as 7.  Yes, God has a sense of humor! 

More precisely, God has used children in our lives to change us.  Initially that change came through a long, frustrating, painful desire.  We tried unsuccessfully to have children for 3 years.  I remember the ache, the hurt when people would ask “When are you two going to start having kids?” or the most unhelpful “Just relax and it will happen.”  Before this time in our life, I never would have considered adopting.  Never.  It wasn’t on my radar.  As a 20 something year old man having a biological child was absolutely critical to me, but 3 years of failure in getting pregnant broke me of that thought. 

In the summer of 1998, Rachel and I decided we would adopt if she was not pregnant by the end of the year.  We researched how much it would cost, identified adoption agencies and started saving money.  By the end of July Rachel was pregnant with Vienna and Hayleigh….but the desire to adopt never went away.

We learned in the years to come that having children can be hard.  When your child’s life is in danger you realize just how little control you have…and it breaks you, humbles you, molds you. 

While we were thrilled to welcome Sarah into the world in 2002, we also experienced 3 miscarriages from 2000 to 2004.  Those little lives are known to God and to us.  We grieved their loss…and something in each of us changed. 

After the 2004 miscarriage, the doctors told us we could no longer have children naturally.  We learned in 2013 that doctors don’t always know what they are talking about.   God does indeed have a sense of humor because little Isaiah was conceived quite naturally during the first month of our 8 month mission trip around the world! 

But back to 2004….when we thought we could no longer have children, the seed of adopting that had been planted in 1998 sprung forth.  We became foster parents for a season hoping to adopt in that way but for a variety of reasons that pathway to adoption didn’t work out.  We attempted to do a private adoption of an older child in Ukraine but for a variety of reasons that didn’t work out either. 

These things can be frustrating and confusing as one is going through them.  But as we were telling someone about our failed adoption in Ukraine, the door opened through that person to our son AJ.  We knew we were going to adopt him before he was born, and I wanted our first son to know for certain that I have always thought of him in one way and one way only.  He is my son.  Not my adopted son, my son.  I gave him my name so that he would know that all the days of his life – Andrew John. 

This ‘he is my son’ thought remained with me all through the adoption process, and then the most wonderful thing happened.  When we got the call that AJ was on his way into the world, the feelings I had that night waiting for his arrival were EXACTLY THE SAME as the feelings I had when our daughters were born.  Exactly the same.  God knit that little boy into my heart, and he is indeed my son. 

I have wondered over the past year what it would be like to adopt someone who had already been born.  Would I feel the same?  And now I know….

God has knit these girls into my heart.  They are my daughters.  The anticipation, the excitement, the nervousness, the ‘about to be a father’ feelings that only truly happen when you are about to be a father again…they are all present right here and right now. 

As I send this note, Rachel and Sarah have just left the hotel to pick up our soon to be 14 year old daughter….

Father, on this Easter Sunday I thank you for your Son Jesus.  Thank you for adopting us into your eternal family through the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus.  Thank you for the opportunity to be a father once more and for knitting these two girls into this father’s heart as they are already knitted into Yours.  In Jesus’ Name I pray, Amen. 


Friday, March 25, 2016

Adoption: For Such A Time As This....

Three years ago I started this blog to document our journey serving Jesus around the world for 8 months.  I knew that time would be life changing for our family... and it was.  I wanted the kids to be able to look back many years from now and perhaps show their own children what they did, what they learned, and how we grew as a family and as followers of Jesus Christ.

A few months after our return we had another major life and family event as we nearly lost our Hayleigh and at the same time our 5th child, Isaiah, came into the world.

While family milestones and significant life experiences have certainly continued the past 27 months since I last posted, it wasn't until this week I felt it was time to post something new to the blog.

WE'RE ADOPTING!  



After much prayer (and much paperwork!), Rachel and Sarah are on their way to China to pick up our two newest daughters.

As they meet each child, starting with the older one, I will post more details about our journey to each child, explain their names, and introduce you...our friends and family....to our daughters.

For now, here are their pictures....




Words cannot explain how excited we are to welcome these two blessings into our family.  Please pray for safe travels and that everything goes well in China.

"Pure and undefiled religion in the sight of our God and Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained by the world."  James 1:27

God bless,

Andrew

PS  Sarah and Rachel are literally on their way as I'm writing this post.  For a variety of reasons we decided it would be best for me to stay here with most of the kids and for Rachel and Sarah to travel to China.  They will be gone 16 days and return home April 10 and then we will be a family of 9!!!!

Here are the first pics from my excited wife and daughter....


Rachel really likes this one with Sarah kind of glancing at her out of the corner of her eye...


Of course, during their layover in Chicago they had to have Chinese food ;)



And, apparently, Rachel needs some work using the correct side of chop sticks.  She is a quick learner...



China is 12 hours ahead of East Coast Time in the USA.  They will be arriving 725PM Beijing Time and traveling northeast from there to Shenyang arriving 1135PM Beijing time March 26.  After a rest day they will pick up our nearly 14 year old daughter on March 28.  Til then...God bless!

NEXT POST:  A Mother's Thoughts, A Father's Thoughts  http://tsfga.blogspot.com/2016/03/adoption-mothers-thoughts-fathers.html

Sunday, December 22, 2013

Hayleigh: Homecoming #2

Last Sunday December 15 was Homecoming #2 for Hayleigh....her first visit back to our church since September 29.

Our pastor spoke during his sermon about 'peace' even in times of stress and chaos using Joseph, Mary's husband, as an example.  He then interviewed Hayleigh at the end of the service.  I thought she did a beautiful job expressing her thoughts about what had happened to her.  I hope you have some time to watch the full video....



Here is the link to the video in case the embedded version doesn't work:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nSKlgBgXEM

One minor correction....Hayleigh's last conscious memory was that Friday night (October 4), but she wasn't fully sedated until the next afternoon when the doctors put her on the ventilator.  Also, it isn't clear in the video but on the 2nd helicopter flight her teacher was not allowed to ride with her so she really was alone when she arrived at the second hospital.

Many of my comments echo what I wrote in the following blog post from November titled "At The Foot Of The Bed"

http://tsfga.blogspot.com/2013/11/hayleigh-at-foot-of-bed.html

Rachel cried when she read that post.  I think it is the best summary of our experience.

Hayleigh is now attending school full time and will be working hard through the holidays to make up work she missed during her absence.

There is no way to thank you enough for your thoughts, prayers, encouragement, gifts, cards, and acts of kindness during this time in our lives.  From the deepest part of our family, thank you.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and your family.

God bless,

Andrew
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Update October 4, 2014

Hayleigh just sent out this note to the 'Hayleighs Helpers' Facebook group which was set up to support her and our family last year:  

"A year ago today was the day I started getting extremely sick.  I don't think I would have survived without all of your support and prayers as well as the incredible care of my doctors and nurses. 

So, I wanted to take today to thank all of you for what you did to help me and my family.  Thank you for the hospital visits, the cooked family meals, the encouraging notes, the funny video messages, the decorations in my room….but most of all, thank you for caring.    

Now I am walking, talking, and back in school!  My doctors told me recently that I am back to the baseline level of health I was at before I got sick.   

If you didn't get a chance to see my interview several weeks after I got home, here is the link:


I told my story in that video, and my dad filled in the parts where I was too sick to remember what happened. 

I will never forget what you did for my family and me.  Thank you! 

God bless, 
Hayleigh"

We are very blessed to have our daughter back.  Her doctors have referred to her recovery as 'amazing' and said things such as 'God has something special for you to do as very few people fully recover from what you went through.'  

Her schooling is going amazingly well.  Rachel and I have noticed her energy and commitment level to her work are stronger than we have ever seen.  In short, she is maturing into a young woman, and we can't wait to see what the rest of life has in store for her!

As Hayleigh noted, thank you for all you did for our family during our time of trial last year.  Thank you especially for your thoughts and prayers.  Words cannot adequately express our gratitude.  

May God bless each and every one of you.  








Sunday, December 1, 2013

Thanksgiving

So much to be thankful for this Thanksgiving....

Our little turkey...


Our favorite set of photos from Thanksgiving....






Thanksgiving dinner at Tim, Joan & Peter Lafferty's home along with our dear friends Lasaundra and Jonah Simmons...


Sarah and Tim goofing off at Pete's expense....


And who do you think inspired this picture (hint: he is an elder at our church and his name starts with Tim)


Baby holding time with Joan...


And with Lasaundra....


Jonah has always been special to us.  He started calling Rachel 'Mom' at youth group years ago and after AJ threw up in his mouth as a baby we laughed soooooooo hard (and still talk about it to this day).  Anyway, we have adopted him and he is officially our kids 'brother from another mother'


AJ's RACE CAR courtesy of Pete Lafferty....


Love the reaction of the ladies when AJ's race car rounded the corner...


The kids (notice AJ playing with Pete's old matchbox cars on the end of the couch)...


Fun....




Turkey bums...


Cutie...


Our first visitors from our world trip!  We met Clinton and Deb Roberts on our tour of Turkey and Greece.  They are pastors of a church near Chicago and were passing through on the way to visit family in New England.  We spent the afternoon reminiscing with them about our trip, hearing about the rest of their travels, talking about our journey with Hayleigh, and simply having a wonderful time with them.  We even learned that Clinton's father had met and spoken with Dietrich Bonhoeffer...


After Clinton and Deb left, we started decorating for Christmas....




Vienna said "What's with the 'J' ornament?" and Rachel laughed saying "Um, Vienna, it's a candy cane!"  To which Vienna jokingly poked fun at herself saying "J is for Genius!"


Cute boys...



Isaiah fell asleep with Sarah in her bed.  A few minutes later Sarah woke up saying "Dad, Isaiah is sucking on my shirt!"


Isaiah and me...


Brothers...




And finally, Miss Hayleigh.  My last post to the blog said everything I wanted to say about our journey with Hayleigh.  We are so thankful in so many ways...


A Thanksgiving to remember for sure.

God bless,

Andrew
EmailTheJourneyBlog@gmail.com

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Sunday, November 17, 2013

Hayleigh: At the Foot of the Bed


At the foot of the Hayleigh’s bed in Maine, life changed.
The foot of the bed in Maine the morning of Oct 5 before Hayleigh was intubated.  This position was the most comfortable for her at the time but her condition steadily worsened into the early afternoon.  
At the foot of the bed, I had my heart broken.  Rachel and I had just prayed over Hayleigh as she coughed uncontrollably.  Heaving coughs.  Gasping for air coughs.  But what broke my heart was the look in Hayleigh’s eyes.  Fear.  Concern.  Pain. 

She knew something was very wrong.  What do you say to your child to calm that fear?  ‘They are going to intubate you so that the machines can help you breathe….everything is going to be ok’….but you don’t know that….and she knows you know you don’t know that because as you say these things there are tears in your eyes and a shakiness to your voice. 

So you end with ‘I love you’ because that is true and that is pure and that is what the moment demands…..and you actually gain strength in that moment of truth and the determination in your eyes meets hers…and for a moment there really is an ‘it's going to be ok’ kind of connection.

At the foot of the bed, perspective thundered into my life.  After speaking with Hayleigh, Rachel and I stood at the foot of the bed holding up the ‘I love you’ sign in sign language.  And she looked up one last time, saw our sign, quickly raised her hand with the same sign back to us, and then the drugs took her from consciousness. 

What do you think about when you know you may have just spoken your last words to your daughter?  What do you think about when there is a very real chance you just saw the last waking moment of your precious child’s life here on earth? 

You don’t think about your job or how much money you make.  You don’t think about what kind of car you drive or what kind of house you live in.  You don’t think about sports teams, fantasty football, how many ‘likes’ you have on Facebook or any other totally frivolous thing we somehow attach importance to in our lives.  If you have an addiction whether it is drugs, alcohol, porn, sex, or anything else….I don't believe you would be thinking about the object of that addiction at that moment. 

From my experience, what you think about is life… the fragility of it, the preciousness of it.  And then you think about God.  And you pray.  You pray like you have never prayed before.  I would imagine that only the hardest of atheists wouldn’t pray in a moment like this because THIS is what we were made to do.  We were made to Glorify God…to pray…to love…  Is it any surprise when all the deception and distractions of this world are fully stripped away you would do exactly what you were made to do?  At the foot of the bed, that perspective most certainly thundered boldly into my life.

At the foot of the bed, I felt the chill of death.  In my first post about Hayleigh I wrote about this in the section called ‘The Valley.’  I had just emailed our friends and family with an urgent request for prayers….I wrote ‘She is in the valley of the shadow of death’….and then I stood there, at the foot of the bed.  Her bare feet were before me, still dirty from the miles long barefoot walk her class had taken two days before.  As I started to pray over her, I took her feet in my hands and started rubbing them.  They were so cold.  Shockingly cold.  I could feel myself rubbing harder, willing the warmth to return as her oxygen saturations hovered in the 20% range. 

This picture was taken during the hour of greatest concern.  I am at the foot of the bed barely visible (behind the guy with his hands in his pockets).  You can see my green collar and arm extended down to where her feet are.  Dr Wood is in the orange shirt and cousin Suzy is next to me with the mask on.  Now that I know what happened, I feel like the white light in the background is the Spirit entering the room....

At the foot of the bed, I felt a deep, longing sadness.  I was already beginning to mourn.  I thought about the digital picture frames in our kitchen that are currently loaded with all these wonderful pictures from our 8 month mission trip.  I thought about those pictures knowing that every time her picture flashed on the screen there would be this pain, this loss, this hurt, this longing for her presence. 

But something started happening as that thought lingered.  I started thinking things like ‘thank goodness we spent that time together as a family….thank goodness we got to experience all those things with Hayleigh.’  And the darkest part of the journey started to lift. 

At the foot of the bed, I was reminded that joy can exist even in the darkness.  As I continued rubbing her feet an image came to my mind of a woman named Kelly Downing standing on the stage at our church giving her testimony.  I don’t know Kelly.  I have never spoken to Kelly.  But she is who came to mind in that moment because despite being paralyzed due to effects of long term Lyme’s disease, this woman had joy in her life and continued to smile.  I got her email address from our pastor the next week and sent her this note:

“Hi Kelly,

My favorite movie is "It's a Wonderful Life" starring Jimmy Stewart.  I'm sure you are familiar with it, but basically God lets the main character see what life would have been like if he had never existed.  

Whenever I get a chance to show someone how their life truly impacted mine and my family's life I make it a point to tell them.  So, here is a story for you that I hope encourages you....

My daughter, Hayleigh Scott, nearly died on October 5.  I don't know if you have seen our blog, but here is the message I wrote about that day:  


What isn't written in that note is the part you played in that day.  There was a very dark moment where the life of our daughter was ending here on earth.  There was nothing I could do about it, and I felt totally helpless.  

And in that moment of utter despair and helplessness, God reminded me that there can be joy in the darkness....and he did that by bringing forth the image of you standing on the stage at Crossway giving your testimony....talking about being willing to go through anything as long as God allowed you to keep your smile.  

In that dark moment, that's what I thought about....and the peace started to come to me....and my strength through Jesus Christ rose....and then the protection I wrote about in the message happened....and then God cleared her lungs and let us keep her here on earth.

Your life matters.  Your suffering and how you have dealt with it matters.  People you don't even know have been touched by your life.  In the end, we can't take anything with us.  All that really matters eternally is what we do to further God's kingdom and bring others into His eternal Light.  

I'll never know all the lives that are being touched by Hayleigh's life.  I'll never know how God uses our family's response to this situation to further His Kingdom.  But I know your life helped make our response possible....and in the end I do believe God will use all of our suffering for His Glory.

I hope this message brightens your day.  Thank you for being obedient to Jesus Christ even during your darkest days. “ 

And she wrote back saying she was crying…. that she never checks email late at night but felt like she was supposed to check her email after a really bad, pain filled day….and that despite the pain she was now filled with joy and hope.  

At the foot of the bed, God weaves people together.  I didn’t think about that fact at the time, but there is no question that God works powerfully in moments like this to connect people in community.  The example with Kelly is but one of many beautiful connections.  They started that afternoon as I started getting text messages from people I haven’t heard from in literally 4 years or more.  Rachel sent out a Facebook message when things were looking very bad.  It has been very humbling for us to go back to so many friends’ Facebook pages and see what they wrote on that day, how they urgently pushed the message out to pray for Hayleigh. 

The love and support we have received has been phenomenal….from friends (new and old), family, our church leaders being at the hospital in Boston even before we got there, my best friends driving 5 hours north thinking that their buddy would need his friends on the day his daughter died….only to get the message when they were already north of Portland, Maine that we were on a helicopter heading to Boston….and then turning around and driving all the way to Boston….the 5 best men I will ever know.   There were so many people who showed up at the hospital, so many encouraging notes, thoughtful gifts, donations to the Kenyan shoe project, assistance in finding us a place to deliver Isaiah…I could easily write an entire note just on this topic.

At the foot of the bed, God brought me peace.  The day after all this happened I wrote here on the blog “I prayed over her Isaiah 53 "...and by his stripes we are healed" I prayed over her Psalm 91 "...because you have made the LORD who is my refuge, even the Most High, your dwelling place, No evil shall befall you, Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling; For He shall give His angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways. In their hands they shall bear you up..."  I prayed over her Psalm 23 "...Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me."  

As my eyes remained closed, what I saw happening was the same thing that happened in El Salvador during our mission trip when the community prayed for our team.  You can read about that in the first part of this blog post http://tsfga.blogspot.com/2013/02/normal-0-false-false-false-en-us-ja-x.html  (link opens in a separate window).    

It felt then that the community's prayers had a physical form arching around and over us like a cocoon / wigwam of protection.....as if God was saying "You are doing My Will and are under My Protection" 

That is what happened as I was praying over Hayleigh while holding her feet. I saw that same cocoon / wigwam arch over Hayleigh covering her in His protection.   And from that moment on I felt a peace inside me that Hayleigh was going to be ok and that I was going to be ok as well.  I didn't know if that meant she would be alive on earth or alive in heaven but the peace was one that was beyond understanding.”


At the darkest moment of the journey...when her oxygen stats were 20%, when we didn't even know if a helicopter could make it to Maine to bring her to Boston Children's Hospital, when the doctors had indicated if things didn't improve she would die....at that moment of total chaos and stress...before I knew we would get this 'happy ending'.....I was at total and complete peace.  

The greatest gift in my life was this moment.  Leading up to this moment I felt what one would expect in a situation like this: stressed, fearful, tense, worried, sad etc. To be overwhelmed by peace in this moment is really indescribable.  After years of groping around in the dark wracked by doubts about who Jesus was, I know now He is exactly who the Bible says He is.  Nothing will ever change my mind on that fact for the rest of my life.  Jesus Christ brought that peace to me before I knew what was going to happen with Hayleigh; it was a life changing moment for me and our family.   

My 5 friends who showed up that night in Boston have each spoken separately to me about what that time in the waiting room meant to them.  Less than 4 hours after the events described above happened, I told them the story,  They have each spoken about the peace that was in the room that night….how they didn’t understand how it could be there given all the turmoil of the day but how comforting it was.   I learned that night the peace that surpasses understanding can radiate out to others. 

At the foot of the bed, more than any other moment in my life I felt God.  I felt His power.  I felt His presence.  I felt His love.  As I ended the prayers above I said "I pray all these prayers in the name of Jesus.  Amen."  I opened my eyes and within seconds a huge amount of liquid shot out of Hayleigh's lungs via the intubation tube. Her oxygen concentration stats went from 20% to 100% in less than 30 seconds;  it was the only 100% number I saw the entire day.  Coincidence?   I don't think so. 

At the foot of the bed I was transported to the foot of the Cross.  

Where despair turns to hope
Where darkness turns to light
Where weakness turns to strength
Where love reigns

Everything I am I lay there for His Glory and for His Purpose.  



I pray Hayleigh's story strengthens your walk with Jesus.  

God bless,


Andrew
EmailTheJourneyBlog@gmail.com   

Other posts that outline my walk with Jesus:

http://tsfga.blogspot.com/2013/10/hayleigh-faith.html

http://tsfga.blogspot.com/2013/10/hayleigh-she-walks.html